I sit here

Reveling in the aftermath

Of what I am capable of

Transcending love 

Into purest of hate

I realize

You are correct

I am to blame

Curse me with fervor

Wish for my destruction 

And downfall 

I am ready

For it all 

Arms wide

I embrace the fault

That is I

Repulsive 

To myself

I do not deserve

Love

Nor hate

It is much too good for me

Squirm away

Like the witnessing 

Of rodents passing

I only wish

To leave this realm

I surrender 

I wave the flag

I don’t want to cry anymore

I don’t want to know

The pain of loves betrayal

I don’t seek to venture

Down disappointment lane

Those tears you cry

Aren’t worth my lament

Let me shrivel away

Til dust is no more

And even the Almighty

Can not breathe life into 

The sands that filled me 

Empty I came

And want to return