SILENCE

SILENCE

This silence wells my eyes
Inside the screaming
Never subsides
I wish to explain it all away
This, to be that, and so on
But birthing a thing
Gives light to its adverse
Oh… what shall I do
When my chest hurts in naivety
These bones cry with realities
As I stand painted smiles on the outside
The foundation crumbles
The fables no longer holding weight
The safety of childish years
Eradicates my joy
We push, and toil onwards
To where? Destinations darkness
I try desperately to remember before this time
To no avail
And once there, will I recall here?
In this I shall also fail … I presume
But, what if I want out of this enclosure ?
A break in its wall
Watch it all fall
Would it bring me the wonder of it all?
Ah… so many questions
As the one who holds the answers
Lays dormant and watches
As the silence and I become one in the same

Hallway Light

Not sure what’s forgiveness

The moth attracted to light

Or streams to quench my soul

Holding on to final breaths

Scared, of the inevitable

Tingling on finger tips

I recall your eyes

Lord, are we worthy ?

Scrambling for a spot like butterflies

Tired of the fight

But know nothing more

Let me have a glimpse

Just stay, if you’re sure

That salvation is found

In the flickering down the hall

Loved Me

Loved Me

I won’t apologize

Being the thief of a heart

Like leaves

Changing color in the winters

I was only reaching

Into something

I didn’t understand

But I wanted

What was you

Inside though

I always knew

You’d never be mine

And I’m forever guilty

Of this crime

In your mind

So with lifetimes apart

You’ll always hate me

For loving me

And I won’t apologize

Crossroads

Crossroads

I flirt with the end

Balance beam everything

So I can feel Grace

It’s shame and blessing

Of exclusivity and at once excluding

A Child of crossroads

Playing hide and seek

This way or that

Loving and despising

The tightrope

Choking what is left and right

Closing my eyes

To recall the thrill

Of it all

The ease of which I bring

Sweet Suffering

To my doorstep

And to speak of boundless joy

I only toggle in its surrender

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El Calor

He aprendido a amarte a distancia

donde estoy libre de dolor

Observando con la esperanza de que reconociera mi adoración

Me imagino a nosotros felices siempre

De las pasadas tragedias

Sé que un día yo reuniré el valor de admitir mi amor por ti

Pero por ahora atesoro nuestros encuentros rápidos

Cuando nos besamos Hola y adiós

Cada tiempo orando que me sientas

El calor de mi amor.

Emerald

Tell me beloved

What is a field of roses

When you are the very garden

From which it breathes ?

All can perceive

That our father

Whispered a secret in your ears;

Golden Words

only you can decipher

Oh where does such magic

Derive from, dearest one?

All would come

If you’d divulge

What you’ve hidden from the world

Tell me beloved

Of this emerald you possess

Tell me

Every Second 

A kaleidoscope of memories 

Sprints across my eyes

Realizing all that was

Each and every moment 

Living and dying all at once 

The essence of right now 

Surfaces so clearly 

As I remember 

What seems to be yesterday 

There is nothing to grasp 

There is simply 

The letting go 

Being present 

As every second dances away from me 

Yet paints a beautiful memory 

Let the sky become a canvas 

Your breath a song 

And create it with blissful ness 

As I close my eyes 

And I am grateful

Home

Where would I possibly go

If in this very moment

Your blessing abounds 

Whether in the tallest building 

Or nestled in my sheets 

Swimming in the ocean 

Or seated on the shore 

There is truly nothing 

But your love 

Beyond all the scents

And the abundance of colors 

That surround me

I kneel before your beauty 

And I am home 

Truly 

Do not think of me keenly 

I do promise thee

That I will fail you 

And leave tears where Love reigned 

This admiration you feel

Is merely illusion 

Only the Heavenly Father 

Deserves this praise

I am just a man 

Try as might 

To forget this reality

I am fallen

But loved by his creator 

I can only ask forgiveness of thee

For my foolish ways 

Words and actions 

I pray you know 

This love in my heart 

That grows with his every word 

Because it is there 

That you will know me

Truly