Here I Am

In between each breath

There in that space… I am

See me in

That moment before ink touches paper

… I exist

Where sleep wins over

Tired eyelids

In the letting go…. I’m already there

Feel my words

When the flakes of snow

Are just about to caress the ground

… There I shall abound

I promise to never part

Even after goodbyes

Every Second 

A kaleidoscope of memories 

Sprints across my eyes

Realizing all that was

Each and every moment 

Living and dying all at once 

The essence of right now 

Surfaces so clearly 

As I remember 

What seems to be yesterday 

There is nothing to grasp 

There is simply 

The letting go 

Being present 

As every second dances away from me 

Yet paints a beautiful memory 

Let the sky become a canvas 

Your breath a song 

And create it with blissful ness 

As I close my eyes 

And I am grateful

Love

Dare you ask

How to describe love

Like asking about the taste of water 

Or the scent of a thousand rose beds 

It can only be experienced 

With all its suffering 

Torment 

It’s end

And zeal

Do not ask me of its meaning 

I only

Want to know more 

Forever 

I have planted you

In every place I’ve gone 

In hopes you blossom 

Be it in another’s earth 

To have held you close 

A memory for lifetimes to come 

Fill up every void 

Defining love and loss 

Birth and death 

Blurring lines in its disobedience 

Lawless in action 

Wanton spirit to explain 

How we did hold the sun and moon 

When our embrace created breath 

I still inhale you 

Envious the rose became 

Interchangeable 

All the same 

Buried you in the air I breathe 

This is how I’ve set you apart 

Forever 

Scripture 

Tell me

You’ll pray with me

That God will be first in all we do

And when you see me on my knees

Thankful in tears 

That you’ll join beside me

Bow your head as I do 

Whisper sweet nothings 

In my creators ears

Where it becomes everything 

And from there

Our love can blossom 

With the promise of today

Tomorrow 

What was 

washed away

As his hands touch ours 

This will be our courting season 

Not Netflix and chill 

But Scripture and prayers 

Tell me this is you

And every mistake before you

Shall be erased 

Tell me 

Remnants 

I can smile

And know

That yes there was a moment 

When our hands binded as one

And the fragrance of breeze 

Made fantasy actual 

There wasn’t any need 

For sustenance as food 

As we existed from loves nectar

It was there 

I vowed protector 

And as it were 

Through the years 

Emptied from such duty 

Only did a shell remain  

And what was love

Withered in dust 

It is said 

It’s better to have loved 

Than to never have loved before 

I evoke curses upon 

The barer of such a scourge 

That with its departure 

Left remnants of a heart 

Full Circle

I found a space 

Between the in and out

Restriction holding no obligation 

Where I could finally lay my anguish

There and only there I’m to know 

Rest once more 

Evading Mara 

The tempter iblis 

The armies of destitution 

I shall recover what was lost 

Coming full circle 

Facing myself 

Clutching dark 

To discover light 

Discerning this moment from that juncture 

Setting free it’s cause and effect 

And finding deliverance 

Breaking the stronghold 

Of disillusion 

I will form a treaty 

Within Ego and heaven 

It is there that I will treasure me 

Anew 

Separate from all I know and knew 

In between every breath

I found a space