By the pond
That divides into four corners
I stood in the middle
Listening to the flapping of wings
From the geese that call it home
Quiet waves of water nestled rocks to and fro
Distracting in its connection
I forced the racing of my mind back
I thought of all that I would say
As It all faded away
The questions I had held for so many years
Suddenly disappeared from my lips
I glanced at a older man
Fishing with his grandson
The news on TV did not matter
Media and all its forms were far from this place
An elderly woman walked by with a walker
In her struggle there glowed a smile
A small dog greeted me with tail wagging
And happiness in its entire being
I melted in the surrendering
For so very long I mastered the art of questioning
Wanting an understanding to it all
And now I peered at a deer eating grass
The sight of my breath in the cold air
In the witnessing of it all at that moment
No thing mattered and yet it all mattered at the same time
The colors, the aromas, the sounds
The hurt, the pain, the experience
Yesterdays held no semblance
Only this very moment
And this moment
And the next
Blame dispersed
Anger soothed
Perceptions erased
The filth became clean
Thoughts confined to the now
Of wanting to give eternal gratitude
Closing my eyes
Building courage
A Deep breath
I opened them again
No longer there
I met God today.