“I may walk slower, but I’ll never walk backwards.”
Category: Thoughts
Thoughts
Goodbye
I wish to touch you again
But fear this damage we’ve done
I love enough
To relinquish tarnishing you
And pray you grow as you should
For to pick a rose from the ground
Only ends its life
I shall cease doing so
May waters from another’s heaven
Bring you growth
And nurture your petals
And soils on which you stand
Build foundation in your world
I walk away with your scent
Memories of your texture
On my fingers
The ones that you let go of
I will forever understand
The act of letting go
And with these words
My final goodbye
The Disciple
Lamentable how I idolized you
Sort of worship your ways
Wanted to emulate speech patterns
So bad, I’d forget the sound of my voice
Words you spewed became laws
And I enforced them defiantly on myself
Til scars became stronger than flesh
I detested my reality
Cause yours was truth… Wasn’t it?…
Wouldn’t chew until you sat and ate
No need to say grace in your presence
God couldn’t hold a candle next to you
And Satan trembled at the mention of your name
I became a disciple
Renouncing self
Removing attachment and possession
Sun rising and setting for you
I was foolishly happy
Lost but found
Where others would try to stifle your actions
I’d brush it off with zeal
For the epitome of beauty and truth you were
Weren’t you?
I crawled like believers in Tibet
To reach your throne
Only to be dispatched away
Leaving me like most that follow
And hold faith
Crumpled in submission
I claimed me
Absent from your tyranny
I regenerated self
The instrument of perception guided
And I danced in its example
Where eyes opened
And acceptance ensued
Though alone I finally felt repose.
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Nirvana
I wish my emotions to sit still like Siddhartha
Under the bodi tree
Unwavering amidst storms and temptation
Let my heart rest assured in what you bring
Undaunted with barely a blinking of my eyes
Not a doubt would enter into my thoughts
Emptying past hurt and failures
Breathing becoming life
I would touch the foundation of us
To serve as witness
To the disbelievers as there would be many
As I arise from my transfixed state
Let me walk this Earth with a new found ministry
And when my bones have become brittle
I’d close my chakras with the last vision of you
Oh let me sit still like the enlightened ones
Having savored the nirvana of you
Thank You
You have made the sun come out in the darkest of days. I want to thank you for showing me true love. As I shed the past, you build a new.
Blessed!
Missing You
I will admit, I’m missing you
Funny how we see the good and tend to forget the bad when loneliness beckons
The more I hate you
The more imbedded you are In me
Oh how the heart refuses to release the connection
The bitter pill of reality while you seek refuge in another arms
Why wasn’t I enough?
So many questions left unanswered
I pray to the universe to cut the ties between you and I
In hopes to be able to breathe again
Goodbye…. My love
You will always be…
I may not be perfect, but I certainly am real. I’ve made my mistakes, I’ve hurt people along the way, mostly have hurt myself with my choices. But all I can do is get back up, brush myself off and keep moving. All praise due to the almighty, as long as I have breath in my lungs I am blessed. With that Mi Gente, I will forgive those who have wronged me and I will forgive myself. Pa’lante!
Real Talk
Master Isa (Jesus) said once, “let he who is without sin cast the first stone.” I laugh when I see so many act like they’re clean when you have five baby mothers, cheating on wives and husbands, dead beat fathers who haven’t taken care of their own kids. Liars that truly believe their own BS, ego centric a**holes that think people like them, while in reality you’re hated. Stop hiding behind the veil and be accountable! Set yourself free from the pile of lies that way you down! #realtalk
Axel Garcia 