Oh how this fall wind
Reminds me of you
Cold and pungent with dew
Veiled by passing clouds
You conceal what is to be
And keep me foolishly guessing
Thawing away morning chills
With afternoon warmth
Only to descend to record lows
With the setting of the sun
I won’t write you another letter
Nor think of your face
I’ll scrub away the scent of you
Off of me
I’ll replace you with another
Take her out to dinner
Romance her in ways divine
I’ll even smile, laugh at her jokes
And have a drink or two
Just like you used to do…
And tell myself
That I’m over you
That the strands of our connection
Are now broken
And the universe
Listened to my cries
Of wanting you out of my soul
I’ll hit the gym
Sweat like there’s no tomorrow
And ache something awful the next day
And as I lay there in pain
I’ll say…
Doesn’t it feel great to move on?
Doesn’t the air feel lighter
Away from your gravity
Isn’t it quieter?
I’m surely at peace…
I’ll stare at my mirror
Who knows me so well
And reflects the liar
I’ve become…
Left her glorious toxicant in me
Oh how I prayed that it wouldn’t linger
Visitor of adorned degrees
Evermore punctured by its stinger
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I wish to touch you again
But fear this damage we’ve done
I love enough
To relinquish tarnishing you
And pray you grow as you should
For to pick a rose from the ground
Only ends its life
I shall cease doing so
May waters from another’s heaven
Bring you growth
And nurture your petals
And soils on which you stand
Build foundation in your world
I walk away with your scent
Memories of your texture
On my fingers
The ones that you let go of
I will forever understand
The act of letting go
And with these words
My final goodbye
Lamentable how I idolized you
Sort of worship your ways
Wanted to emulate speech patterns
So bad, I’d forget the sound of my voice
Words you spewed became laws
And I enforced them defiantly on myself
Til scars became stronger than flesh
I detested my reality
Cause yours was truth… Wasn’t it?…
Wouldn’t chew until you sat and ate
No need to say grace in your presence
God couldn’t hold a candle next to you
And Satan trembled at the mention of your name
I became a disciple
Renouncing self
Removing attachment and possession
Sun rising and setting for you
I was foolishly happy
Lost but found
Where others would try to stifle your actions
I’d brush it off with zeal
For the epitome of beauty and truth you were
Weren’t you?
I crawled like believers in Tibet
To reach your throne
Only to be dispatched away
Leaving me like most that follow
And hold faith
Crumpled in submission
I claimed me
Absent from your tyranny
I regenerated self
The instrument of perception guided
And I danced in its example
Where eyes opened
And acceptance ensued
Though alone I finally felt repose.
copyright ©Axel Garcia
Eternal
Lover
You have been mine since your conception
If only you’d have known
My futile search was in vain
My patience tested
For what is to be shall always find its way
I pray
You can forgive my foolish errs
And grant me forever by your side
Battle ready
Our love has endured much
I lay down my arms now beloved
And surrender
The moment you said “I do”
The God smiled upon us
Knighted I felt among your royalty
Entering into this communion
Your kiss the last I shall taste
For I am yours
Eternal
I wish we had happily ever after
You have made the sun come out in the darkest of days. I want to thank you for showing me true love. As I shed the past, you build a new.
Blessed!
Axel Garcia 